Tears that burn my cheeks,
habits that are nothing like me whatsoever are now, oddly enough, all that I am made up of.
Fears, lots and lots of those, especially.
The cause? my one and only regret; you.
I had hoped and prayed I was wrong about you; even when dumb lyrics of an old song told me otherwise; even when every fucking signal of this dumb, random universe tried to deter me from you. I thought “the harder the more worth it”.. Well I’m surely not the one laughing now.
Tonight I had lost, the very last piece of my heart on a summer. How unpredicted-scoff-
Therefore, tonight I will declare that in my final defeat I have no other choice but to surrender.
I am now a cowering shadow. Always and forever opposing to the sun; surrounded by it maybe, but never fortunate enough to get a taste of it myself.
I don’t know if I forgive you yet; cause I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to forget you.
I sure hope so though.
I sure hope so..